Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Diving

Diving

There is this feeling  
That the secrets of life’s  
Most meaningful moments 
Lie beneath the surface.  
So we must dive for them. 
It starts as a kind of shiver. 
A quick intake of breath. 
My hands tremble, 
Slightly in my youth, 
More as I’ve grown older. 
The feeling of something moving 
Just beyond my field of vision. 
Knowing I am in the presence 
Of mysteries, truth? wisdom? love? 
Attention is now imperative. 
A quiet slowing of respiration. 
I wait until it flashes 
Once more below me. 
And I fling myself down 
Into the shining waters. 
Arms outstretched, fingers spread. 
Sometimes it wriggles free 
Flashing off again beyond 
The pastel edges of consciousness. 
But other times, marvelous times, 
I burst up, gasping, to 
The sun-sparkled surface. 
Holding aloft my glittering prize. 
A poem. 

Sunday, April 12, 2020

In Pursuit of the Present Yet to Be

Or, In Pursuit of The Particularly Precious Prescient Present Yet to Be

(Written during the “Go home. Stay there. Wash your hands. Keep away from people.” days of the COVID-19 pandemic of 2020.)

In her book, On Death and Dying
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross 
Calls it “bargaining.”
It is one of her “stages of death.”
She uses it to talk about the
Big bargains we try to make 
With God:

 “Let the search plane
Find me before I die and I’ll
Devote my life to pursuing 
World Peace for All People.”

Big stuff like that.

The US, in large part
Through a failure of
Governmental leadership,
Now leads the world.
In the unenviable category
Of COVID-19 deaths.
There is no way that is not
Tragic.
And so the bargains
Go up from ICUs
Around the nation.

But there are also
Bargains with a twist.
Since the virus has,
For many, 
Perhaps even most,
Mild or no symptoms,
These bargains center on
What we will do if
“I dodge the virus
And life could just get 
back to NORMAL 
before I die of boredom!”

It goes like this: [You may read aloud.]

Please God, let life get
Back to normal and
I promise to:

Stop touching my face.
Keep washing my hands.
Pay more attention to
The people in my life.
Be nicer to my partner.
Smile at my neighbors.
Thank every healthcare
Worker I ever encounter.
Always thank cashiers.
Waiters, too.
Call my parents more often.
Call my children more often.
Walk the dog more often.
Thank trees.
Thank birds.
Thank flowers.
Thank Birds of Paradise.
Both the birds and the flower.
[....Insert your bargains here.
Repeat as necessary.]

So, God, do we have a bargain?
Wadda say, Big Guy?
A little back to normal?
A little regular old-fashioned everyday?
Please, please, please?

Amen.

Saturday, April 4, 2020

All the World's a Monet

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In these days of "don’t do this, don’t go there, don’t do that," I thought I would share "a please do this” with you - “Open your eyes.” We had declared delivering an ever-growing pile of “donate-able” pre-move items we had gathered up in our voluntary social distance isolation as an “essential service.” Goodwill, our close-by default donation site had closed all its donation sites so I got on the Nextdoor Neighborhood site and asked for suggestions. Through them I located Healing Transitions an addiction recovery organization that would see that the donations went directly into the hands of their clients, an organization that was staying open because “recovery can’t wait.” Seemed like a good group, so I loaded up the vehicle and headed out - gloved and masked, naturally.

My GPS wound me out around the airport via roads usually clogged with commuters and commercial vehicles. Today they were largely empty which was a very good thing, as I would have been rear-ended any number of times as my vehicle sank below the posted speed limits as I unconsciously slowed to marvel at the Impressionist wonders unfolding around me. 

Spring is in full flower here in North Carolina. The sky was cloudless allowing the leaves and buds of each tree and shrub to claim sunlight to illuminate its unique shade of green, yellow and gold; its unique shape and twisting that would later be absorbed into the less-defined jade landscape of full summer. Wisteria’s lavender vines cloaked entire hillsides as it gently strangled the lesser foliage it had claimed for its scaffold. Even the kudzu revealed why it was initially thought of as an ornamental vine. The undisciplined wild landscape was occasionally interrupted by more formal plantings that fronted the entrances to residential or commercial enterprises - a classical counterpoint to the improvisational riffs of the wilderness's themes.  The road circled the now-closed Umstead State Park whose barricaded entrances seemed a teasingly flirtatious invitation to its now forbidden vistas.

I arrived and had my donations unloaded by a pleasant, most appreciative cadre of folks, and headed back home. I told my GPS to take a less direct route home in the hopes of encountering new wonders. Unfortunately, that resulted in a route through the commercial backdoor of Raleigh Durham International Airport. But there, too, was interest. The route was largely deserted, winding past vacant observation decks, secondary flight towers, and private hangers I had never seen before.  Everything was eerily silent, and concrete dominated everywhere. I did not encounter another vehicle until I was shuttled onto the main road that encircled the “real airport.” 

As I approached home, Monet reasserted himself. Roadside grasses waved in multi-layered, many hued tiers stepping up to bushes and shrubs that occasionally backed into patches of forest that had escaped the encroaching, now vacant and chastised, efforts of the Department of Transportation. I pulled into the driveway, proud of myself for having resisted the temptation to pull off onto the side of the road to snap a couple pictures while running the risk of being run over by another solitary equally distracted and enchanted motorist. I did take a couple of quick shots down our street that I will share with you. But they hardly do justice to the visual feast I had enjoyed. So go outside - maintaining proper social distance, of course - and open your eyes.

Blogger is being weird about loading the pix from my drive, so I'll just add a couple "in the style of" or "from the workshop of." You will get the idea, and your own will be much nicer.